Friday, March 22, 2013

Messy Night Owl

All day I was thinking about what to write about today.
What link-up to join so people could see my blog.
What people would be interested in.
How I should do another fashion post because those are fun and people like those.
Or maybe another post on something spiritual because then I can converse back and forth on what I believe.

Blah blah.


I didn't create this blog to write noise.
 I started it to express my thoughts, feelings and share my life.
Not that I really thought I had an interesting life but I wanted somewhere to write where I could always connect and be inspired by other people. 
I wanted to inspire people. 

However, my life is messy. 

Why would I ever want to tell people I have hard time keeping my apartment clean when I only work a part time job?
That I'm still really angry at my Dad for leaving.
That I have no clue what I want to do with my life career wise?
That I struggle to apologize when I'm wrong.
That I wish certain friends were still in my life even though they treated me like crap.
That I'm not perfect.

I read a lot of blogs. So many it hurts my head because then it spins with information I have no clue what to do with. I read a lot of the same stories. See a lot of the same outfits. See the same makeup tutorials. 
The list goes on.
I want to read about people.
About their lives.
Their struggles.

I love looking through the window into someone else's world and wondering what their life is like. It's easy to paint a beautiful picture of life through blogging. You only show what you want others to see.
I want to be seen.
I want to be seen even if people don't like everything I write.
I want a free place to write & share even if it's only to a few people.
That's okay. 
I'm not looking for an audience.
I'm looking for connections.
I have made those already and it's just incredible and mind blowing to me how I have connected with people I have never met in real life. Maybe I never will. But I have connected with people and shared deeper thoughts with people I am closest to in "real life"

I have a story. 
You have a story. 
 I want to read and connect with those stories. Even through this web.
How crazy modern our world is now.

But I'm a woman with many thoughts, emotions, creativity, messiness, sarcasm and a keyboard.
A keyboard to write on this little blog of mine and type every thought and emotion I am willing to actually share with this big world I live in. 

Life is so damn messy & I'm okay with that. I'm not perfect. I stay up wayyyy to late for my own good and then you get posts like this!
You're welcome.

Love Forever,
Chel Chel


  1. Life is messy! You are not alone in why you blog. I started nearly a year ago because I wanted to tell my story, even if nobody read it. Glad to have connected with you :)

  2. This. This is why I love you! I definitely struggle with this too. Life is messy, we both know that, but how we deal with the mess and portray it the beauty of it.