All day I was thinking about what to write about today.
What link-up to join so people could see my blog.
What people would be interested in.
How I should do another fashion post because those are fun and people like those.
Or maybe another post on something spiritual because then I can converse back and forth on what I believe.
I didn't create this blog to write noise.
I started it to express my thoughts, feelings and share my life.
Not that I really thought I had an interesting life but I wanted somewhere to write where I could always connect and be inspired by other people.
I wanted to inspire people.
However, my life is messy.
Why would I ever want to tell people I have hard time keeping my apartment clean when I only work a part time job?
That I'm still really angry at my Dad for leaving.
That I have no clue what I want to do with my life career wise?
That I struggle to apologize when I'm wrong.
That I wish certain friends were still in my life even though they treated me like crap.
That I'm not perfect.
I read a lot of blogs. So many it hurts my head because then it spins with information I have no clue what to do with. I read a lot of the same stories. See a lot of the same outfits. See the same makeup tutorials.
The list goes on.
I want to read about people.
About their lives.
I love looking through the window into someone else's world and wondering what their life is like. It's easy to paint a beautiful picture of life through blogging. You only show what you want others to see.
I want to be seen.
I want to be seen even if people don't like everything I write.
I want a free place to write & share even if it's only to a few people.
I'm not looking for an audience.
I'm looking for connections.
I have made those already and it's just incredible and mind blowing to me how I have connected with people I have never met in real life. Maybe I never will. But I have connected with people and shared deeper thoughts with people I am closest to in "real life"
I have a story.
You have a story.
I want to read and connect with those stories. Even through this web.
How crazy modern our world is now.
But I'm a woman with many thoughts, emotions, creativity, messiness, sarcasm and a keyboard.
A keyboard to write on this little blog of mine and type every thought and emotion I am willing to actually share with this big world I live in.
Life is so damn messy & I'm okay with that. I'm not perfect. I stay up wayyyy to late for my own good and then you get posts like this!