Friday, February 28, 2014

//Bumpdate 28 weeks=3rd Trimester

How many weeks: 28 weeks
Movement: He is pretty mellow. He kicks me everyday but he doesn't do the big jabs and hard kicks. I have only felt maybe 3 hard kicks my entire time of pregnancy so far.
Symptoms: Low appetite, belly feeling like it's stretching like crazy, leg cramps ( I need more bananas in the house now) heartburn, round ligament pain and just over all pretty tired most days no matter how long I sleep.
(This is how I feel about all my symptoms. Why, oh why?! Okay, enough drama!)

Any weight gain: Last I checked was about 12 pounds. 
Sleep: I have been going to bed and getting up pretty regularly so that has helped me during the day not feel like I want to fall asleep.
Cravings: Nothing really this week. Still have lemonade stocked up in the fridge.
Moods: I have been in a pretty good mood this week. Having my mornings has helped me feel more productive. 
Stretch Marks: No new ones.
Linea Negra: Nope!
Belly button in or out: Still in but that thing might poke out any day. It sure feels out to me.
Moments during the week: The kids at my YMCA site have been really funny lately. They ask everyday when Im having the baby, how I am doing and sometimes shove basketballs in their shirts and pretend to be me. It's pretty hilarious actually because they shove them way up on their chest and especially the boys crack me up! They think in a matter of seconds the "baby" or basketball will come out and ta-da! Baby! I have one boy in particular who's mom is due at the end of March so he has been my little helper/buddy lately and today he came up and gave me the sweetest hug for no reason. Those kids make me laugh and make me realize how important it is to be a positive role model in their lives. 
On another note I have an appointment Tuesday and it's the one where I have to drink that really sugary drink. Some women have told me it's really gross and my doctor was cracking up because he's convinced he could slap a good marketing label on it and make millions. He says it is really sweet and tastes sort of like a flat soda. He likes them actually! So we shall see. I'm not nervous, just annoyed I have to be there forever to do the test. I'm glad my appointments are getting closer together because I have a list of questions I want to ask especially before we leave for California! My boss finally approved my request and we are headed there March 19-27! Excited for a vacation/baby moon/ baby shower and just a time to catch up with family & friends!

In case anyone wanted to view my registry here is the link: Baby Liam Registry
(If you happen to purchase anything online it already has my preferred address stored to be shipped too)

Love Forever,
Chel Chel

Tuesday, February 25, 2014


I was standing in line to get my cat Daisy fixed today ( no this isn't a cat post, I'm not that crazy of a cat lady!) and I was chatting with the girl behind me. She was really friendly, talkative and telling me about her cat Duke. We chatted a bit about where we worked, her son and my soon to be son, my husband and her boyfriend and some other surface-y type topics. As I waved goodbye to her and thanking her for the chat I realized something, I could have easily shut the conversation down. There were a few other people in line I interjected my comments in, I mean we were all there for a similar purpose, but they would respond and then turn away. The girl, Tiffany, kept our conversation going and I did as well. When I was in my car driving back home I was thinking how much more I have made an effort to reach out to people.

Andrew and I moved here knowing next to nobody. If we want to have community and also reach people for Jesus, we have to reach out. People aren't going to just become friends with me or us for no reason. No one in close community probably even knows we exist. I've learned in this generation and time of technology how important reaching out and just talking to people is. I mean seriously some people get freaked out by real life conversations now and I just think it's hilarious some times. It's so easy to hide behind our tiny phones and computers and output out opinions and thoughts. However, in person your statements become so much more vulnerable.

I have become so much more vulnerable moving to Washington. It was almost like a fresh start and it's expected people are going to ask me questions about my life that so many people back in California just knew. I've learned to become even more of an open person and become a better listener. I'm surrounded by a new environment and new people that requires me to listen more so that I can get to know my community. Vulnerability is a trait that I think is taking a back seat in so many peoples lives. Also, listening and actually caring for the people in your life has been excused by the word busy. We're all so "busy" and don't carve out time for each other anymore.

I've learned in this past year that being vulnerable and not listening can really cause some damage in relationships and friendships. Now being vulnerable is not a bad thing but it can hurt when the person you're telling things to doesn't respond the way you expect or is to busy to be there for you. I know I have totally messed up in this area. I expect people to listen to me but then when they come to me I flip the coin. I've hurt people and had relationships and friendships change because of it. It's all taught me something though. That being vulnerable is okay even if you get a rejected response. It means you're growing and allowing trust to happen even if the person responds differently than you expected. I'm definitely not saying to share your personal buisness with every human soul, there is such thing as over sharing, but I think we need to stop being so afraid to open up to the people who care about us in our lives. I know I've opened up and it totally back fired in my face. Friendships I thought I would have forever faded in almost a matter of weeks. Friendships I thought had no reconciliation eventually did and apologies were able to be made even if the friendship was then different. Now I've opened up to a new community of friends and my circles have also shifted as my life shifted. I now know this is all okay and I have embraced the friendships I have now and the ones I've had to let go. I've tried my best to reconcile with the people in my life that have needed it and given space to the ones that reconciltion may or may not come. It is all okay and that was something I thought for a long time was not okay!

God has changed the way I look at people. We're all busy, we've all got something going on but it doesn't mean we can't be there for people. It doesn't mean it's not okay to say this is all I can give you right now but I'm here. Opening up to the community around you and not limiting the people you allow in your life will change the way you look at people. At least for me it has. I look at people and see stories, experiences and a chance to get to know someone I may call friend. 

Community is important and I don't think I realized that until I was in a completely new one. I encourage you to reach out to people, share your story and make peace with people in your life. It's not easy but everyone has something on their plates. 

( I had to include at least one picture of the cat!)

Love Forever,
Chel Chel

Sunday, February 23, 2014

//Bumpdate 27 weeks

How many weeks: 27 weeks
Movement: Party all day everyday!
Symptoms: My appetite came back for about 3 days and then has sort of trickled off again. Still feeling really tired. I had a long week that had me gone pretty much all day, everyday. 
Any weight gain: Total weight gain is 10-12 pounds! Yay! 
Sleep: Trying to get as much of it as I can. 
Cravings: Sour things and chocolate milk. 
Moods: I have been emotional and really drained. This past week was particularly exhausting. I filled in at work in the mornings which had be up everyday at 5:30. I just do the after part of our program not the morning so it had me way off my routine. 
Stretch Marks: No new ones.
Linea Negra: Nope!
Belly button in or out: Still in but to me it feels more poked out. 
Moments during the week: I had a long week and I was very emotional the other day. I just felt I had way to much on my plate and I needed to figure out what was "extra" in my life. Honestly, I realize having my own child will be very different and forever but I have to say after four years of watching 30-50 children everyday with different personalities, temperaments, disabilities and needs I'm ready for just one. Just one child with one personality, temperament and needs. I won't get to give him back at 6pm but at least I can put him down for a nap! My point is I've always known I wanted to be a wife and mom. I never wanted to be a career women. It's just not for me. The reality of becoming a mother is something that I'm excited for and ready for this chapter to be unfolded. I'm ready to close the chapter of watching everyone else's child for now. 

For all my California family & friends we will be coming for a trip March 19-27 and the baby shower will be then. My mom and her helpers are getting everything prepared and invites should be going out soon! Can't wait to have a baby moon and baby shower and spend some time in the sun before Liam comes.

Love Forever,
Chel Chel

Thursday, February 13, 2014

//Bumpdate 26 weeks

How many weeks: 26 weeks
Movement: Some days Liam is mellow and other days he reminds me with a good kick he is still in there.
Symptoms: Sleeping better this week. Appetite is here and there. Leg cramps at night sometimes. Dealing with some back pain :( also, still getting morning sickness a few times a week. 
Any weight gain: I gained a pound! Yippee!
Sleep: Sleeping great! Hard to get comfy but a pillow under my belly usually helps. Andrew refuses for me to get a body pillow. I might sneak one in here pretty soon! 
Cravings: Lemonade and sour candy.
Moods: I have been pretty happy this week minus one day when I was running on low sleep and my routine was thrown way off. I had to help out at another YMCA site and boy was I cranky being out of my routine.
Stretch Marks: No new ones.
Linea Negra: Nope!
Belly button in or out: Andrew says it is slowly starting to pop out.
Moments during the week: I had an emotional day this week where I just had this reality of having a baby. It just sort of hit me that in 3 months I am going to be holding my own child. It still seems very surreal to me most days. I just cannot believe I am finally having one of my own. I have always called my daycare kids in California my kids and now my YMCA kids are my kids too. I have this motherly instinct to want to teach, grow and develop our littles of this world. However, at 6pm Liam will still be with me. I don't get to give him back to his mama because I will be his mama. I had so many emotions that one day they just all spilled out. I am so thankful Andrew was there to hold me & just listen to all my thoughts. Looking at Andrew and knowing he is going to be Liam's daddy is really awesome too!

( Andrew wanted to take my close-up)

Happy Valentine's Day!

Love Forever,
Chel Chel

Saturday, February 1, 2014

//Bumpdate 24 weeks

How many weeks: 24 weeks
Movement:Everyday this little guy is kicking me like crazy! 
Symptoms: Morning sickness keeps showing up here and there & it's annoying. Feeling exhausted most days. My belly the other day was really hurting and I was feeling really stretched out. Still not much of an appetite.
Any weight gain: Well from my lovely and oh so hearty appetite (yeah right! hope you caught the sarcasm) I lost two pounds. 
Sleep: Insomnia has entered my world. I can literally have days where I literally don't stop until I crawl back into bed and BAM! wide awake. 
Cravings: Mickey D's fries. I know they aren't good for me. I don't care and I haven't even indulged that much. 
Moods: This week I have been more irritable. I think all the mommy advice is getting to me & the overwhelming amount of information. Positive thoughts and encouragement otherwise, unless I ask, please don't share all your opinions with me for the sake of just sharing to share. 
(to the few women I have been confiding in and getting lots of information, encouragement and love THANK YOU!)
Stretch Marks: No new ones.
Linea Negra: Nope!
Belly button in or out: Still in!
Moments during the week: I have been hearing it looks like my belly popped! Nice to finally look pregnant and not just feel all big around the belly. 

(the last note says: "you are so loved by so many people who have already started to spoil you." sorry lighting was a little off and my handwriting got funky.)

Love Forever,
Chel Chel

P.S. Claim a $5 gift card with my personalized invitation code( HKZRW) to my Poshmark closet when you sign up! It's free on the iPhone and Android app. @chelzz08 is where you can find my closet. 
Trying to sell some items for Liam's nursery.