2012 was a remarkable year for me. I had the time of my life being engaged, traveling. seeing my best friend more than once ( she lives in Florida) and getting married of course. It was a very blissful and joyful year but it has also been a very life changing and eye opening year into some very real realities. Relationships dramatically changed. Some I expected and some I didn't. Some were a happy change and others were not. I, can admit, I put very HIGH expectations of my friendships. Usually, without the other person knowing. I believe myself to be a very deep, loyal and committed friend. I have a hard time with shallow friendships and usually leave those to the side with very little attention.
My twenties have shown me I don't want every person I meet to be my "BFF FOREVER!!!!!" and that there is a cycle to friendships. A very few will remain in your life forever and others are only meant for a season. Maybe months maybe years but not forever. I had a hard time with this because I thought I picked my friends wisely why are some no longer here? Well I'm human and not as wise with some of my friendships,others didn't meet my expectations I had in my head, and most don't have the same view or value on friendship as I do. This is against anyone it's just a realization to me that it's okay to let certain people go and to let others make their own mistakes in friendships until they realize some people have stood by them all along while they were busy trying to maintain to many friends. I don't think it's wrong to have many different kinds of friends and relationships I just think it's important to know who's really going to be there when the mud gets really sticky.
I know God is constantly growing and changing me and He's getting me ready for a new season.. The hurt and tears that came from this past season have really opened up my eyes to what I value in life and whee to invest my time. Letting go of things and people that have hurt you is not easy but it's necessary to grow in the Lord. I want to pursue my dreams, ministry and be open for whatever He has for me. However, I can't do that until I let go.
I think I'm finally ready to do that.