Wednesday, July 24, 2013

//happy anniversary!

July 21, 2012 I married my best friend.
Andrew you are the best thing that has happened to me.
You make me a better person, you make me smile, you encourage me, you help me in areas of weakness, even if I fight you for it, I am thankful for it. 
You provide for me, confide in me, hold an umbrella over my head even if we get mad at each other.
We travel, sing, annoy, laugh, cry and enjoy each other.
You encourage me on rainy seasons.
You are a man of God, a man on integrity and character, a hard worker, kind, thoughtful, loving, mellow, calm, super & ridiculously musically talented.
You're a dreamer & you show me how to dream.
I couldn't imagine life without you in it.
This first year of marriage was hard, it was a lot of growing and stretching, a ton of learning, loads of communication and opening up but a ton of fun. 
I look forward to eternity with you. 
You are my spouse, best friend and lover.
I love you Andrew!

Love Forever {your wife}
Chel Chel

Friday, July 19, 2013

//Every flower must grow through dirt.

This has been a quote I have been reminding myself for the past month.
I have been pretty M.I.A. and it's just been a whirlwind lately of endless well crap.
I don't think I could explain it any other way.
I have to be pretty vague, unfortunately, because I am in the midst of some pretty rough life circumstances. However, I need to write and this blog is a place where I feel I can be open and connect with people I may have never met otherwise.
Lately God has really been growing me in the area of trust.
I have a really hard time with the word trust.
My dad left when I was 17 and never looked back.
That tragedy has scared me for life and so I struggle with trust & anxiety.
Anyways, in this season I have been stretched so thin I don't think I can possibly stretch anymore with out breaking into a million pieces. However, with God I'm still managing to stay put together. It's all Him seriously because to my standards I would have cracked a long time ago.
That quote above has become my tune. I'm trying to sing when I feel like my world is telling me to shut-up, keep my head down, feel worthless & not valued.
It's frustrating and something very few people can understand because the picture painted for them looks wonderful but the picture from the inside is a complete toxic mess.

I haven't experienced such a toxic season like this in my life.
All I have left is to choose to trust Jesus.
It's all I have left.
I have to put my complete faith in Him because me trying to control and maintain the situation is like trying to put a lion in a tiny box.

I know God has called Andrew and I to greatness.
I know if we continue to trust and obey Him he will serve justice where needed and will bless us for our obedience and faithfulness.
Until then Andrew & I stand firm knowing God sees & has got our back we just have to choose to trust.

That word is so hard yet so peaceful when you choose to do it.

Stand firm in what you believe it & always do what's right.

"Every flower must grow through dirt."

Love Forever,
Chel Chel